i’m not going down that road
today
(she rests both palms upon
the rim of the hard white
surety of the basin and lifts
her head square and eye level
with the lens)
the sun is shining and i am at
a point where the mirror holds
no terror no fear no one left to
unmask in morning’s reminder
of mortality mascara run and
traces of innocence dried
staining these cheeks three
stations east of any valid
claims to virginity
spiritual or
otherwise
(water runs hot clouds rise
and by her will does not fog
the glass the centuries felt
in every thought unspoken
responsibilities wrapped in
zip lock bags next to the
tissues and a spare pair of
glasses)
today the air has the proper
number of molecules and they
all seem to be well spaced no
clusters or at least few i can
breathe now i can breathe
(inhaling deeply the moist
steam vapor offers absolution
in the shadows in the valley
of the living as the dead are
and shall remain so passe
she wipes her eyes first the
soft white wash cloth of turin
mitigating the sins of saturday
night)
i can breathe despite the
broken clock ticking its way
erratically enough to never
be correct the pages of that
book being flipped back to
dates that never existed
rebuilding a wall struck
by the divine by the
godess
(she opens her gaze to the
image in the fabric the
suggestion of red amidst
the tans and sees herself
naked stripped of the desires
the consideration of choice
subway map folded tucked
close in a surplus medic’s
bag)
and this much is clear
(brushing her hair)
no two objects can exist
in one location
it’s not their fault
the poor dears
further
no single object
can exist in two
very separate locations
just how it is
(she laughs watching
every hair fall into place
as though nothing no one
no force of evil
had ever touched her)