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grassy knoll
Posted in 1, art, astrolabe, bowling, cats, freaks of nature, god, nylon, outsider art, partical physics, poetry, rabid dogs, space aliens, stupidity, the god virus, venomous creatures, Writing and Poetry with tags art, baseball, birthdays, cake, cannibals, christianity, elvis, explosions, fire, god, homecoming, jersey shore, liquor, love, miracles, new jersey, pagan, partical physics, philosophy, poetry, religion, sex, trains, USA, writing, yeti, zombie on March 6, 2016 by Marci Paynecandy bracelet
Posted in 1, a human thing, art, astrolabe, bowling, cannibals, cats, destruction of property, dinner under $10!!!, dragon fly, fetid sow, fire, freaks of nature, god, harassment, issac newton, medicated people, methodist coloring book, momma panda, mythology, nylon, outsider art, partical physics, poetry, rabid dogs, short story, side show attractions, snake oil, socrates, space aliens, stars, stupidity, subtraction, the god virus, the living dead, tunisia, venomous creatures, westboro baptist church, Writing and Poetry, yeti with tags art, baseball, cake, cannibals, christianity, criminal activity, elvis, fire, gangster, god, harold camping, homecoming, jersey shore, liquor, miracles, new jersey, pagan, partical physics, patriotism, philosophy, red sox, religion, sasquatch, sex, short story, trains, travel, USA, writing, zombie on October 22, 2014 by Marci Paynehow dare you
make me feel loved
(tears drip onto blank page
memories of a big girl singing
jazz a cappella in a back-lit
brooklyn walk-down summer
night hazy from burning flowers
the clear voice a conviction of
the spirit wrapped in a candy
bracelet given sanctuary from
persecution in the holy cloud
mortal cloud the way all things
ultimately point in one direction)
i was numb and liking it maybe
like is too strong a word but content
no that is apostasy maybe just numb
with an attitude that approximates life
(red-headed smiles cut through the
bullshit holding his hand while it was
still his to offer and the voice rings
reverberating echoing bouncing about
inside the deep longing the soul near
starvation the tiny ship cast broken
upon the rocks of a desperate shore
barren save for the sea shell madness
fragmented piercing her flesh the soft
tender the exposed belly and throat)
i could live happily were I some one other
were I able to leave my heart to rest here
forever
damocles’ ceiling fan
Posted in 1, a human thing, art, astrolabe, cannibals, cats, destruction of property, dinner under $10!!!, dragon fly, fetid sow, fire, freaks of nature, god, harassment, issac newton, medicated people, methodist coloring book, momma panda, mythology, nylon, outsider art, partical physics, poetry, rabid dogs, short story, side show attractions, snake oil, socrates, space aliens, stars, stupidity, subtraction, the god virus, the living dead, tunisia, venomous creatures, westboro baptist church, Writing and Poetry, yeti with tags art, baseball, bigfoot, birthdays, cake, elvis, gangster, god, harold camping, homecoming, jersey shore, liquor, love, love lost, miracles, music, new jersey, pagan, parks, partical physics, patriotism, philosophy, poetry, red sox, religion, sasquatch, sex, short story, suspense, sweet memories, thug, trains, travel, USA, wildlife, wombats, writing, yeti, zombie on September 15, 2014 by Marci Paynei have a ceiling fan
which i never have
turned off i believe
it to be the lynchpin
for this reality of
time and space
(there are little rifts about
the place seams come
undone corsets after the
closing time arias are
sung
she admires
certain cracks
more than others mostly
measured by their ingenuity
mimicking faces of
saints and other
historical figures)
i slept directly under it for
a whole summer daring it
to fall
but clearly that never happened
although one night
i heard the neighbors fucking
in the back of
his blue pick up truck
and i guess
that counts for something
(she has determined that
lemon drops
the ones dusted
lightly with corn starch
the ones her father’s
mother liked so much
are truly wonderful)
but i won’t shut it off
either way
just in case it is more
than just
a silly feeling
i may not believe in god but i have seen dogs smile
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like a cudgel
it makes me feel safe
(she sips her tea and
considers all of the hats
which clamor for attention
sitting in an alienated garret
with a view of nothing more
nothing less)
so very russian which
alone
can be frightening
but i have a continent
to protect me
although i find no
other use
for middle america
(prague weighs heavily
in her front pocket
the chaffing an old friend
whose welcome worn thin
insists upon being)
it is a flavor of sadness
without a hint of defeat
and i enjoy that
as much
as it troubles me
(the other burns
flowers
in pursuit of her
desire
to eliminate
desire)
tapestry
Posted in 1, nylon, partical physics, poetry, short story, stupidity, tunisia, westboro baptist church, Writing and Poetry, yeti with tags art, baseball, bigfoot, birthdays, cake, criminal activity, elvis, explosions, fire, gangster, god, harold camping, homecoming, jersey shore, liquor, love, love lost, miracles, music, new jersey, pagan, parks, partical physics, patriotism, philosophy, poetry, red sox, religion, sasquatch, satre, sex, short story, suspense, sweet memories, thug, trains, travel, unicorns, USA, wildlife, writing, yeti, zombie on September 11, 2014 by Marci Paynei see each thread as they cross
the color of joy and anger run
back upon sorrow and mirth
until the tapestry is hung several
hundred years before i was even
a thought the beast pierced and
beaten raging against the inevitable
capture circled by the intentions
of men and the slack-jawed
swarming about the splendid
curiosity
(the echo off of the walls the
stone floor absolute marking
each heel in concrete terms
she stands amid the din the
laughter of the children hands
pointing at the blood on as it
flows from the side exhausted
she falters slightly and places
her hand just below her throat)
so primitive yet so alive the hand
of the weaver still moving passing
the shuttle to and fro immortalizing
the terror in the eyes the torn flesh
the horn bowed in defeat as death
becomes a reality even now in its
faded state safe from everything
except the gazes we add to the
picture with our own lust our desire
to possess beauty
(there is a hint of a cologne she
recalls and dismisses as olfactory
hallucinations are precedent for
further disturbance the fire-place
behind her long cold and chairs
upon which she once sat are
guarded roped off from the
people eating dreams from
small plastic bags which make
crackling sounds resounding
the call of the hunt)
ocean
Posted in 1, nylon, partical physics, short story, stupidity, tunisia, westboro baptist church, Writing and Poetry, yeti with tags art, baseball, bigfoot, cake, cannibals, christianity, criminal activity, elvis, explosions, fire, gangster, god, harold camping, homecoming, jersey shore, liquor, love, miracles, music, new jersey, nudity, pagan, parks, partical physics, patriotism, philosophy, poetry, red sox, religion, sasquatch, satre, sex, short story, suspense, sweet memories, thug, trains, USA, wildlife, writing, yeti, zombie on September 9, 2014 by Marci Payneput a splash of yellow on anything
immediately
will to live is supposed
but i much rather remain
right here imagining
sun upon my skin
my shoulders my back
my legs push my feet into
sand warm
uncovering the smallest shell
a soul conceived in deep
blue which colors it all
atmospherically glowing
preposterous skies knowing
everything gets dark
dumpster lid closing
feet now in motion
away from the ocean
which i alone perceive
all which has gathered
between toes and glances
back toward sodom the
land of the dead
(the coffee is strong enough
to kill she closes her eyes
allows the heavy steam to
rise filling senses long-lost
in the last war of angels)
i approach sincerity with a stick
unsure of vital signs deliberately
losing keys and their meaning
the improbability of safe harbor
the inevitability of paying the
devil his portion and look just
fabulous doing it
(there is a necklace she can’t
throw away worn to the bit of
bone upon which the glyphs
were painted it hangs with
a string of pearls from the
agean which began as an
irritation)
i close my eyes
i possess
all of the kingdoms
and riches
of the world
the crystal palace
the golden throne
the water the
salt
what i lack is temptation
the invitation to sin
the nights spent in perdition
watching storms roll in
over a delinquent sea
(she stops herself cold and
cracks her neck and fingers
one by one slowly the sound
comforting release
become kinetic for
an eighth)
hot rondo a’ la rien
Posted in 1, nylon, partical physics, poetry, short story, stupidity, tunisia, westboro baptist church, Writing and Poetry, yeti on September 6, 2014 by Marci Paynei never do that
begin with a coda begging
hold me as you wrap it all
encompass me in the devil’s
signature while i body surf
the waves of achromatic
scales ascending with tidal
rage moving me beyond
three dimensions into a
realm where understanding
is exposed for its own
ignorance
(no amount of discipline
is left in the cupboard
filled with cans empty
of all but irony and a
picture she keeps
secret from herself)
a turtle practices yoga
in the wake of other futile
efforts to orient the soul
legs flailing amid the steady
eighths disproving gravity the
elevation of spirit in spite of
this miracle metastasizing
deadly patterns that travel
eternally
internally
(deciding to remain silent
she dons a mask of dire
complicity in the assault
upon the peace and quiet
the neighbor looks up at
the window as she packs
children off for the day
certain that all of the cans
which she possesses are
filled)
and points north
Posted in 1, nylon, partical physics, poetry, short story, stupidity, tunisia, westboro baptist church, Writing and Poetry, yeti on September 4, 2014 by Marci Paynephilosophy is the luxury of people
who have energy left after subsistence is met
it is also the last stop on the train to being spent
there aren’t any middle class philosophers
even though there are bars and boardrooms
filled with the ersatz
carefully staying within the lines
beauty exceeds boundaries
truth was absent from school the day they were taught
nothing teaches as hunger does
it has been days between stations
and i have no choice but to accept the sun’s rudeness
the unholy glare some mistake for angels
pierces me where i sit in motion
i am a projectile moved beyond will
considering the facts as i know them to be unknown
uncertain
obfuscated by the blinding white
i release the belts designed for our safety
and comfort and become untethered
gravity cares less to hold me
and i float
to see enough is to see too much
above the train i see birds clinging to branches
clinging to trees clinging to earth why would one
not fly if one could i have my purple crayon
and a bad attitude waiting for a duck to color
sitting in a field of daisies
both of us
the duck is not disturbed by my visions or voices
the unparalleled universe has no need to compromise
for toes to be webbed
flowers are already abstractions
unreal testament promoting public nudity
and copulation candy coated and dripping
with the very words the holy
omit
travels are endless until the train stops
conductors never smile in their knowing
each curve
each bump
each cross road crossed off the list
along with the names of imaginary friends
and lovers whose faces scrape along windows
and you can see it in their eyes the words that
catch in the back of the throat
constantly editing text and removing sentiment
with little meaning other than the wonder of their
sound
vibrations that fade and become memories
and memories become thorns
and thorns become wrapped around our must tender parts
our petals bright velvet vulnerable
trembling in the wind from the trucks carrying us all onward
away from all of the miracles which have no conspiracy with power
toward the graven images which should be
at least six stations behind us
occam’s garden
Posted in 1, nylon, partical physics, poetry, short story, stupidity, tunisia, westboro baptist church, Writing and Poetry, yeti on September 2, 2014 by Marci Paynewords crawl out of the grave
seeking more suitable prisons
they dry their wings in the sun
sitting upon angelic pretense
flapping melancholy rhythms
syncopated against the binary
backdrop red curtain heavy
with all of the lessons learned by
wrote or otherwise it matters
so very little if knowledge steeps
or makes its own sauce in a
moment frozen so distant from
heaven’s redemption birds
nesting in coffee cans and
flowers exposing themselves
where no flower should grow
(all the things she once believed
fertilize in their decay composting
with irony and love lies told in the
most sincere faith she turns the
soil in keeping with her peasant
blood as a harvest is expected
bitter or not)
crying only salts the earth but
the denial of tears has a greater
price joy once dried will leave on
the wind broken seed casings
mimic open-mouthed monsters
screaming as the sky fades to
blue-black swirling thunder and
it all catches in the back of your
throat aching the thirst for soft
lap repose fingers laced in hair
and soft kisses the ones that
live beyond passion and the
reproductive mockery of love
(songs are sung which cause
stones to dance deep and low
requiring no voice no verbal
acuity or acrobatics as the
dead take flight mistaken
for stars)
no, mike
Posted in 1, nylon, partical physics, poetry, short story, stupidity, tunisia, westboro baptist church, Writing and Poetry, yeti on August 30, 2014 by Marci Paynewill i allow you to speak
to the bright lit primary
colors hiding behind the
doors locked with minor
keys
will i allow you to invade
with laughter and roses
bright eyes glowing with
love lies and rhetoric so
appealing
will i allow you to touch
me there your throat to
mine hands dancing lost
in an ocean of flesh and
flatted fifths
and if i should
and entropy inevitably
plays its aces
and all we are holding
is each other
(she contemplates a second
pot of coffee and how close
she came to escaping this
mourning robin redbreast
requiem at first light there
are habits subtleties little
tics and bouts with both
marginalized on a post-it
note on the mirror)
and you have come to know
that i am my own worst enemy
as you have come to know this
sadness for yourself will it be
enough will you raise or fold will
you jot on the calendar the
date and time that the silent
orchestra which played for us
only us
left for vegas
or will it pass with the low steady
rumble of a distant storm that can
be seen but will never get you wet
(inappropriate laughter mixes
with the second pot and the
unruly jazz of parker rising
wet dove slick between
side a and side b
in the sweat and smoke
she nods her head aware
of the look in her eye
how cold it is)
love doesn’t die slowly or quietly
(she faces north and bows)
i rejoice in the life i have been given
(the south)
i rejoice in all that i have lost
(the west)
i rejoice for all that has been eclipsed
(the east)
i rejoice for all that will be
(she sits)
and i apologize
(she laughs)
but i just don’t want
to date you
mike