i have never explored
the edge of space nor
have i ever jumped from
a perfectly fine aircraft
when i fell from grace i
had no parachute no holy
hang glider no explanation
for waking up in a double
wide near bath pennsylvania
drooling on the copy of nine
stories i used to carry
(she chuckles under her breath
considering the descent in her
black sundress the one with the
white geometric print and sequins
silver sequins)
but i have experienced rarefied air
the deep dryness beyond reason
and still remain perched with a view
of babylon across the water waiting
for the penitent to confess a new
litany of sin always a light waiting
at the perfect angle for the right
moment to engage to explode
as a small wave rises to its touch
kissing it full on the mouth taking
the rest of the oxygen to one corner
of earth
(she accepts the fact that her
hand is being held and her words are
being heard against this backdrop the
din of one million dying stars and the
millions of accompanying planets some
of which must have intelligent life just
blinking out of existence just like that
poof)
maybe it would cluster someplace nice
madagascar maybe madrid though i was
always fond of barcelona especially during
springtime but anyplace is good to be
when the ground thaws when the snow
melts when the rains come and oh they
come yet not enough to erase that one
memory the shining moment the universe
decided to point out exactly how wrong a
soul could be
(she withdraws her hand to wrap her
excuse of a sweater more tightly
thus removing her a little bit from the
moment while she feels the arm slip
around her shoulder drawing her to
the warmth of the body)
you are brave
(she makes a point of gazing off into
and not making eye contact)
and i would commend you were you
not damned